its time to reflect my years in high school. I have to say, i've changed a lot since the beginning. back then i used to be the shyest guy and i never talked to anyone or tried unless they liked the same stuff as i did.
now, i'm still shy but not as much. i'm voicing my opinion more and i know my parents don't care for it. but what parents do?
back then my writing was horrible. i would write like this..... He jumped then rolled and then he swung his sword and then he dodged...... now i write like this...... Merrick ducked and dodged the sword strike. Out of anger, the creature threw its sword to the side and charged with its claws out. Merrick grinned and pulled out a dagger. With perfect aim, he threw the dagger and killed the creature........
i know my grammar isn't great but if you read my old old old stories you would agree i'm better now.
over the years i gained and lost friends.but i'm happy with who i'm with right know.
Ashley, Rosie, Chey, Hannah, Josh, Aaron, Wayne, Kayla, Ben, Ricky, Tanya, David, German, Justin, and I guess Ethan.
i have to say, i'm sad that i'm graduating... but also happy. i know on graduation day, we're all going to cry. well i know i am anyways. i would like to thank everyone for helping me stay strong in my times of darkness and for being on my side always. i hope i was the same for you people. and i'm sorry if i was useless to help.
TD

first i would like to start with..
a moment of silence for sheepydogs grandma.....
*five minutes pass*

okay time for an update on my boring life....

i feel horrid b/c i couldn't say or do anything to sheepdog. i wanted to comfort her some how and couldn't. i felt like crap and ARG! so basically like this


then on friday my moms cousin and my grandma decided to come over and well the house wasn't exactly clean. luckly they brought pizza so i didn't have to cook! yes! then we went over to my aunts next door and decided to visit her. it was my idea. i just wanted them out of my house. my mom's cousin's kids destroyed their house and not mine so it was all good. we had a fire outside and man those kids threw everything they could find into the pit. bottles, cans, puppies (not mine), pixies, and shrews and they found a unicorn some how, it was amazing. my cousin Mike called and i was able to talk to him and it made my day. oh yeah my dad came home late and i told him that family was over at my aunts and if wanted to say hi. all he could say was, "why should i?" my first thought was "i wonder if anyone would notice he was missing..."

on saturday i went with my cousin to chicago to visit an opening of a new Kingdom Hall. it was awesome. everything was brandnew and the chairs were nice comfy. on the way there i had many photo opportunities but stupid me i forgot my camera. argh.... i wanted to stay for the dedication speech b/c according to my family it makes you want to cry. well, being the emotional type i wanted to see if this was so. but of course my uncle was "tired" so we didn't stay for it. i so wanted to take my shoe and throw it at his head. then in the car i was dieing from heat and every time i cracked the window my aunt would go... "its cold...." so i close it, then "its hot in here" so i cracked open the window. "its cold..." SHUT IT WOMAN! once i get back home my dad gives me his cell and starts walking away and i ask why he gave it to me and he says that he got a new phone and figured since me and my bro and left alone alot that we should have some way to contact him or my mom if we need anything. then both start telling me about the responsiblites this phone has and stuff i drifted out into my world thing.... "who do i really call? there's rosie and ash.... david... yoshi... jessie... thats it.... why would i want a cell?.... didn't they give a graduation present already? i wonder if they expect something back since they gave me this stupid thing. maybe they want my soul.... should i run? maybe they think i'll clean my room now. oh they're finishing their speech better start nodding....yes you are boss me slave... got it... we're on the same page. yes no texting nonsense, no talking for hours on phone only emergency no calling tokyo for a prank call... got it..."
then i look at the phone after they leave and right away i say, "ur gay..." and then i throw onto my bed and leave it there.

anyways... sunday my dad was cooking some pork meat and he wanted to take a shower so he made me watch it and told me to stir every 5 minutes. which i did. i put my jams on and did what i was suppose to do and then i noticed some of the pork started to have burn spots so i called my dad with my new cell and he said "I'll be there in a minute!" that was the longest damn second i ever waited for. he came and started screaming at me that it was burnt and crap and said he should have known that i would let sit there and fiddle on my computer. of course i try to explain stuffs to him and he cuts me off and tells me that i'm going to end up like homeless dude b/c i can't do anything right and crap and after that we haven't talked. and the same thought runs through my head : paranoid : wonder if anyone will notice he's missing....

just now i practiced with ivan's sword. my hands are really tired. i didn't think the weight would effect them but apparently it does. now i'm going to work on chapter 6 and try to have it done some time soon. its more interesting then the others so far. more action and stuffs... anywho...
my weekend's summary. see ya peoples!

Well I saw Kitty.... i wish she could have stayed longer and if, no offense jade, but i wish we were alone. there was so many things i wanted to say but.... curse my shyness.... anywho... it was nice. i didn't want to let her go, i wanted her to stay with me and save her from her mother. *sighes...* i miss her so much.....
*melts into an emo puddle*
i was talking to jon over teh weekend... and durning the week i was able to hang around with ivan. it was nice b/c well no offense girls... it was nice to talk about guy stuff.
i now consider them my beer buddies. lol. weird since neither of us drink. anyways...
don't be surprised if ya see me emo like....
TD

yesterday i didn't caught sneaking to wayne's party. oh right! my brother better keep his mouth shut or he'll die. anyways... brawl was harder b/c well i never used a wii controler ever... so yeah... but i got to look at wayne's weapons! they're awesome. see he actually has real weapons, unlike me... i have a wooden sword and a plastic pipe bow. i got to borrow the sword which was super awesome. i'm going to upload pics of me, wayne and aaron with it. we're the three musketeers ha ha ha ha! anywho.... i've been tortured by so many thoughts of what ifs. like what if i don't graduate... what if my story doesn't take off, what if... what if.. what if....
so anyways... i want people to check out this comic i saw online. its not completed but the artist is awesome, its my opinion of course. click on the [link]
a page will load then click on the dingo at the bottom, he's saying take me to the comic already. its neat but if you have prob with nudity then no read. oh and if you have a prob with bi's then don't read either. i didn't care for that part but the character is just awesome and the artwork is just great. so read it if ya want.
jason

i've been having nightmare lately....and i hate them all. one was where Rosalyn was trapped under some debris and i tried to pull her out but couldn't. these guys kept on telling me it was useless. i woke up with tears in my eyes because i couldn't save her....
then just this morning i was trying to set up my webcam so kitty and i talk to each other. again people were pulling me back and they've kept on saying it was useless....
dream after dream i lose another friend..... and i failed....
i hate nightmares....